Wednesday, May 25, 2011
A new depression
So, after all the work I put in, and all the hard things I've had to endure, I want the whole event to actually be successful. Especially because after this, I'm moving back to Illinois indefinitely. I'm not going to be here. I'm not coming home for holidays.
I suppose that's why it hurts so much when people here tell me they're not coming. It's possible that this is the last chance people will have to see me or Joey, or my last chance to see them.
And I waited a while to mention this because I don't want to guilt people into coming. But they should be aware of what's happening, at least. I just hate this sinking feeling, that I might not see some of these people again.