Wednesday, May 25, 2011

A new depression

Weddings are a lot of work. Did you know that? Especially when you are only able to do any wedding-related work for the 6 weeks before the wedding. And I've been engaged for almost a year and a half. That's what happens when you go to school 2000 miles away from home (and from your future spouse.)
So, after all the work I put in, and all the hard things I've had to endure, I want the whole event to actually be successful. Especially because after this, I'm moving back to Illinois indefinitely. I'm not going to be here. I'm not coming home for holidays.
I suppose that's why it hurts so much when people here tell me they're not coming. It's possible that this is the last chance people will have to see me or Joey, or my last chance to see them.
And I waited a while to mention this because I don't want to guilt people into coming. But they should be aware of what's happening, at least. I just hate this sinking feeling, that I might not see some of these people again.

1 comment:

  1. How is it that someone can say to someone else "I will never see you again." Isn't it as easy as a phone call, or planned trip? I believe those that are in your life, are there for a reason, and God will grant you the ability to once again find them. Don't worry Katie, "indefinite" simply means without a set amount of length or time. You will always be in the hearts of many, which is almost as good as being there yourself. :)